Empathy

I AM NOT AN EMPATH.

Yes, I have in the past, defined myself by this, and many similar identities.

Empathic.
Highly sensitive.
Spiritually sensitized.
Energetically attuned.
..all descriptors which have been attached to this Vessel, for much of this life. 

Even so, I am now flipping the old script.
I am not an empath.

Yes, I feel the emotional states of Beings known and unknown to me, as tangibly, potently as I feel my own.
Sometimes from across a room, or across the globe.

Yes, I feel the raw emotions of my clients when guiding them through hypnotic states of activation and transformation.
I weep with them, laugh with them, because I flow WITH them, in real time.
I FEEL with them.
SEE through their eyes.

Yes, in the past, I have absorbed monumental amounts of emotional, mental, and physical dis-ease into my field.
Illnesses which did NOT originate within this Vessel. 
To the extent of inexplicable hospitalizations and the complete BAFFLEMENT of allopathic doctors.

Yes, in the past, I went to EXTENSIVE lengths to numb my sensitivity, and to avoid energetically charged spaces, at any cost.
I addictively drank, drugged, and self-medicated in EXCESS. 
I detached, desensitized, and turned out.
I abused myself DEEPLY, in myriad ways, and for numerous years.
All in a ludicrously vain attempt to "cope" with the reality that I feel EVERYTHING. 

Innumerable instances in which beautiful Beings expressed to me that I possess a PROFOUND GIFT, tended towards feeling almost insulting. 
For so long, this did not feel like a gift.
A curse, a burden, a near INCREDIBLE inconvenience. Yes.
A gift, no

Even after I learned to OWN my empathic nature as gift, I felt the need to protect, even defend myself against it.
I carried crystals and protective talismans EVERYWHERE.
I shaped the TOTALITY of my life around my energetic sensitivity.
Moreover, I did so with a sense that I was fundamentally different and contrasting, as opposed to the generalized population of this planet.
To all those “others”. Those Beings not as blessed, or cursed, as I.

Throughout this life, whether I perceived myself to be gifted or cursed, I ALWAYS felt myself to be uncommon, and unconventional, with regards to my empathic capabilities.
I also felt myself to be uniquely put upon by, and vulnerable to, the emotional and energetic states of others.

I felt myself to be tremendously fragile, and yet simultaneously, quite special.
As if no one knew, nor could anyone ever know, just how IMPOSSIBLY challenging it was to be SO sensitive.
SUCH an empath. 

In most circles, the term “empath” has come to mean just this: spiritually special, and energetically vulnerable. 
Like a saintly victim. An energetic martyr.

So, here's the thing.
Here's the script flip.
The page one rewrite. 

We are ALL empathic.

We all have the same inner technology. 

We all possess mirror neurons, which allow us to feel the physical, emotional, and energetic realities of others, as powerfully as we do our own.
We all come hardwired for intuitive communication of emotional states.
We all project enormous, POTENT electromagnetic fields from our Sacred Hearts. These Heart fields are continuously modulated through our shifting emotional states, and are constantly communicating with the mutually affecting resonant fields of ALL Beings, both near and far.

The complex, unending, and UNDENIABLE feedback-loop of energetic information moving to, through, and from all of us, is something which we are ALL equipped to process, transmute, and alchemize, whether consciously or unconsciously. 

To say that one Being is an empath is to say another is not, where the truth (as I perceive it) is that we are ALL energetically sensitive, inherently.
Energetic sensitivity is a reflection of the inner technology which makes us Human. 

Sure, some of us come in with more or less of an innate ability to tune in or tune out this inner technology.
Sure, some of us incarnate into lifetimes which are more or less conducive towards cultivation of this inner technology.
Sure, we all experience the various ebbs and flows of this human experience differently. 

This inner technology IS a gift.
It is a gift which we ALL SHARE in common.

Do I experience this human beingness differently from others?
Surely. 
Do we ALL?
YES.
Am I energetically sensitive?
Proudly. 
Are we ALL?
Yes, I feel so.

Have I spent many years (and COUNTLESS lifetimes) coming to terms with my energetic gifts, learning to nurture healthy spiritual boundaries, and honing my own EMOTIONAL MASTERY?
Definitively YES, I have.
Have I now come, at long last, into a flow-state wherein I am able to effortlessly and gracefully utilize my gifts, for my own and others' highest good?
FUCK yes, I have.

Am I more tuned in, more put upon, more vulnerable, or more special than any other Being, anywhere?
FUCK NO, I AM NOT.

I am NO LONGER victimized OR heroicized by the blessing of feeling EVERYTHING. 
My channel is CLEAR.
Thus, energy in motion (e*motion) flows to me, through me, and from, me as water passing through a riverbed.

I am neither victim NOR martyr.

I am a Cosmic conduit. 
I am an INFINITELY powerful keeper of HIGHLY ADVANCED, multidimensional technology. 
I AM ANOTHER YOU.

I am that I am.

Undeniably individual.
Inextricably interconnected.

Sacred.

Sovereign.

Free.
❤
© EJB 2017